As the start of 2017, I gave myself a ‘theme’ for the year and the word was Intentional. I was adamant to stay intentional in all that I do and to give it my best regardless of the outcome. To a large extent, it helped me stay guided and focused. I think I needed the reminder the most when I got distracted or when I get so tired I just wants to lie down rather than be present for the hubs and the little one.
I am a worrywart and I was never good with dealing with separation anxiety. That happened when my maternity leave ended and I had to leave Junior to go back to work and recently when we had to get Junior ready for school.
There are days where I feel like my soul has left the body and all I’m doing is on auto-pilot. I get tired and unmotivated in general. And when I hit such rut, I know I am uninspired. Sometimes I feel like my creative mojo has left me and leaving me beaten and sad. Well, it does happens and happens to all of us from time to time, so it’s all about knowing when and how we should pick ourselves up and uplift our mood.
Last year when I chanced upon the Day in a Life series by Justina of Mum in the Making, I remembered I thoroughly enjoyed what I was reading. At that time, I was going through a phase where I was trying to balance between being a full time working mum and looking after the family. Through the stories of fellow mums, I found great respite and energised to know that I am not alone.
I have the Ostrich Syndrome when it comes my health. I rather ‘stick my head in the sand’ than go for a health check-up. Things sort of change when one becomes a wife/mother. I stop thinking just for myself because my health and general wellbeing will definitely affect my family one way or another.
Has it really been 2 years? I still wake up each day feeling surreal that I am a mother now and that I’m responsible for Junior’s growth and well-being. It still scares me a lot, but I am often comforted by his smile to know that I am doing fine, we are ok.
While Junior hadn’t exactly been a big extrovert, he wasn’t exactly very afraid of strangers before. He would smile at them and say his hellos when prompted by us. However of late, starting from a couple of months back, I’ve started to notice that he gets anxious around strangers and basically sticks to me like glue.
I never did plan to share my proposal story on my blog for I had wanted it to be totally private and special between the Mister and me. But what prompted me to participate in this blog train that was created by Michelle was that I enjoyed reading all these love stories (how I met your father/birth stories etc) and I couldn’t help it but wanted to also document my own love story.
Honestly, I don’t consider myself a blogger mom, I’m just a regular mom who likes to blog! I started this blog as a creative outlet to document my passion for sewing. I love sewing women, kids’ apparels and things for the home! But when my little bub came along in 2014, this little haven also evolved. I started sharing more of my motherhood journey, the ups-downs, joy and challenges and my newfound interest in cooking. While it does seems like a mish-mash of things, it’s exactly how life is to me right now. Now I juggle between family, work and my passion to blog about things that matters.
So read on to find out how an ordinary week looks like for me.