As the start of 2017, I gave myself a ‘theme’ for the year and the word was Intentional. I was adamant to stay intentional in all that I do and to give it my best regardless of the outcome. To a large extent, it helped me stay guided and focused. I think I needed the reminder the most when I got distracted or when I get so tired I just wants to lie down rather than be present for the hubs and the little one.
2017 was a whirlwind of changes and I never thought it would have been possible to get through it all. Junior started school at the start of the year, the mister started to travel really frequently for work, I started a new job, I got pregnant and we are now waiting eagerly for our new addition to the family. Phew, that does sounds like a lot isn’t it?
I really wouldn’t have come so far if it wasn’t for the calm, the peace and the love that God has shown and showered upon me and my family. He has given me so much hope and faith as I surrender all my worries/concerns, the good and the bad to Him. With Him, all is made possible.
Being a Wife
Truth be told, this hasn’t been an easy year especially with the mister travelling so frequently for work. There were definitely days where I resented his work and got all red face exasperated as he breaks the news that he is going away again (not AGAIN?!). There were also days that I’m thankful that he is working so hard, in order to give us the best to his ability (how did I get so lucky?!). It was definitely a year where we learnt to be patient and to be understanding towards each other. We worked through those expectations of what it meant to be a spouse and what we expected of each other. While there are still hair tearing moments and a work in progress, I’m just happy we are in it with each other.
Being a Mother
I don’t think I was ever prepared to be a mother and I don’t think I will ever be prepared. These little ones grow up exponentially and there is a curve ball at every turn and every stage. I probably became a lot more resilient over the last year. Junior started school in Jan and boy was the transition hard. The teary phase lasted for months and does surface again every now and then. He grew attached to his teachers, and when they resigned in the middle of the year, the teary phase came back all over again. We tried all ways and means from bribing to coaxing to negotiating just so he would go to school. He is finally enjoying school now and I do see merits of him going to school (I’ll leave this for another post).
Being a full-time working mum meant that I could not spend as much time with him at home as I would love to. I’ll love to be able to explore nature, to craft and to teach him on a day-to-day basis. But since that’s not an option for me now, I try to brainstorm crafty ideas on a regular basis and do them with Junior over the weekends. I’ve been trying to ignite some interest in Junior on learning Chinese and intends to do more with him in the new year.
He is particularly into trains recently and has spent considerably large amount of bonding time with his papa and badgering him to draw them so they could colour them together. As a family who enjoys the outdoor, we’ve tried to be out as much as we could on weekends and hence the trips to the zoo and the parks.
It was also timely that we managed to make a trip to Seoul before I got pregnant because it was travel embargo for the rest of the year and likely a good part of next year. Junior turned 3 this year,and there were certainly a lot to learn with regards to managing a three-year-old’s emotions. Sometimes there’s just as much science to the art of parenting. Oh, and I finally got down to documenting Junior’s Birth Story. Albeit late but never too late; and I wanted to do so before the baby arrives.
Being a Sewist
With all that was going on, finding time to sew was difficult. I either sneak in some sewing after Junior has gone to bed (rarely now since I can barely stay awake) or early in the morning before the start of everything. Sewing wise, I think I’ve done more at the start of the year with the Betty Dress for Chinese New Year, the Willow Tank that got plenty of good reviews, the Inari Tee hack and the Esme Blouse. I stopped sewing as much for myself as the baby bump grew as I just didn’t feel like I wanted to alter them once I’ve popped. Rather, I’ve been living in my roomier me-makes and adamant to do so until I ran out of space.
Since I was not sewing as much for myself, I’ve had plenty of time to sew for the mister and Junior. I’ve also had time to experiment with simple projects and launched into full fledge sewing mode for Christmas. I participated in Me-Made-May for the 3rd year and had plenty of self-discovery on my handmade wardrobe and style.
Besides Me-Made-May, I also participated in a blog tour hosted by Sewing by TI on Wardrobe Changes and #sewphotohop hosted by HouseofPinheiro for the 2nd year. #sewphotohop is an Instagram challenge of showing/wearing/making things according to the theme of the day for 30 days in September. I had a ball of fun in being creative and ended up with 30 curated flatlays that went according to theme.
Seoul was an inspiration and especially so the fashion scene. The fabric wholesaler is a league on its own and was an extremely mind-boggling yet exciting place to be. I look forward to visiting more fabric places around the world.
Being a Blogger
With all that was going on, I hadn’t been as successful or diligent in this aspect. I was less productive compared to 2016. I had wanted to stick closely to the editorial calendar that I’ve created and wanted to run another round of interviews but I just couldn’t keep up and couldn’t find time to conduct these interviews. There were also lots that I wanted to document but I just couldn’t find time to put these posts together. What a bummer!
Despite so, there were opportunities that came my way in the form of reviews and being part of a community and I can’t say how blessed I am that people do take an interest in what I’ve to say and the things that goes on in my life.
Overall, it has been a good year for me. A year of self-discovery and trying to stay steadfast to the goals I’ve set for myself. Be it from a health angle or trying to be intentional and present in all that I do. I’ve picked up a new skill as I spent quiet time drawing close to God. And also pushed boundaries to seek greater fulfillment.
Although the first trimester for me was brutal and learning how to juggle between a new job and family needs, I think I’ve done a decent job in watching after my well-being. I’m still learning, as with all aspects in my life. But importantly I would like to be kinder to myself.
I’ve rambled on enough and I am looking forward to 2018 with renewed fervour. I’ll leave my hopes and plans for the new year in another post.
Happy New Year and Happy Holidays friends!